Lost my soul

Dear Lord,

Where is my soul? I couldn't find my soul these days, while I feel really dummy everyday. I am lost, weak, lack of strength and wisdom to do everything. Everyday is a dummy day, not a happy day. Seems like I am not belong to this world, or I am not even in your plan... Do I deserve to be a Christian, a child of yours, which used to have a colorful life with you desire? I don't know, I don't understand your planning in my life....I am lost,lost to be a loser. I am weak, weak of the weakness.

During the cell group, I can't concenrate on the discussion even in a minute, every word from the pupils, pass through my mind and couldn't log-in. So Down ar....

God, dear father! Please left me up again. I need your help! URGENTLY!!!!

With Love,
Your Son Mike